Monday, January 9, 2012

Written by the Hemingway of the hen house: Matt Paust's close encounter


I stifled a curse when I heard the beep beep

beep.

Another traffic jamming electric cart. 

 I'd soon be upon the damned thing

 in my usual hurry

 to get the shopping done

 and get the hell out.




Someone less able than me,

self-destructive I guessed

in my least charitable way.

Someone stuffing greasy chips

into his or her face,

stuffing his or her beeping conveyance

with ever more bags of cheap deadly calories,

or shooting the shit

with another witless old fart,

both oblivious to me

as they block the aisle

in their GOD DAMNED ENTITLEMENT!




I round the corner and there he is.

Yes, a he,

a gaunt, tall ancient he.

Enormous bearded head,

white hair on top

and under chin,

milky eyes rolled inward,

parchment lips agape.

The head is erect,

but dead.




The old man is dead,

body propped in its cart

like the dead El Cid

strapped on his horse by Jimena

to save Valencia,

and yet...




Somehow the cart moves,

small, herky jerky moves,

forward and back,

and around,

this way and that,

beep beep beep,

as if its dead commander

still tries to drive.




I walk carefully around

this curious grotesque

to find the spices

and then the beans.

A couple more aisles

I must traverse

before I can leave

this crowded, cursed place.




Several more times

I meet the dead shopper.

Is he following me

or what the hell?

Each time we pass

I study him harder,

with quick glances

to catch a vital sign.




I wonder why he's alone.

If he's dead, how are the purchases

filling his cart?

A respect for him sprouts in my head.

There's no fear in his face,

nor defeat in his frame.

He's not dead but he's close

and it frightens him not.




He's an old sea captain I begin to think,

a mariner once,

an adventurous man,

who thrived on the challenge,

the danger of imminent

untimely death.

 eric the red


He's Eric the Red

returned from the dead.

He's Ahab and Blackbeard,

Morgan and Kidd,

the spirits of skippers

who handled the helm,

whose lives became legend

inspiring us still.


And that's when I saw her,

as I pieced it together,

this towering figure

nearing death in his cart,

refusing surrender

despite all the odds

overwhelming his body,

every breath that he took.



She stood there behind him,

far enough back so I couldn't be sure

she was with him at all.

She looked lost,

nearly helpless,
bent and frail thin.                                         

I studied her face,

but like his it was closed

to strangers it seemed.

She was looking at something

only she seemed to see.



I walked on past her,

wondering anew,

and that's when I heard it:

a murmuring sound.

It was her or him or both in tune.

I turned to look and sure enough,

she'd moved closer to him and was leaning in,

and I wondered if I could tell by the voice

or the voices if two,

what clue I could take from the tones I might hear.

Does she know this old warrior,

does he know her, too?

Would I hear impatience or grumble or scorn?

Would they speak at all, would their faces reveal?



I saw the cart move.

It turned toward the woman

and the old captain's spirit

I could see had joined hers.

There was movement, animation

in that bearded large face.

Her body was bobbing a little with life,

and I heard it then, the sound unexpected.



It was thin, it was fragile, but it held its own.

It chased away dread, frustration and worse.

Their doom imminent, the bodies for sure,

but their spirits were stronger than ever, I knew

when I heard it from her,

her giggle.


                                                            Matt Paust







http://margaretgunnng.blogspot.com/2012/01/synopsis-glass-character-novel-by.html

                                                                  

5 comments:

  1. You're a sweetheart, Margaret. Someone after reading the poem said she'd been afraid it might have a dark ending. Probly knows me too well. Here was my response:

    Had this been fiction it would indeed have been darker. I can almost see Capt. Love struggling out of his cart, shaking with fury, spittle flying from his parchment lips, ashen face growing dark as a rutabaga and roaring, "God damn you, Matilda! You disobedient bitch!! I told you to stay the fuck in the goddamn truck!!!"

    Of course it could have gone the other way, too, with Matilda whacking Love repeatedly on the head with her umbrella and cursing him out for putting the wrong brand of laxative in his cart. Anything's possible in fiction, but the bare facts I witnessed touched me more deeply than any scenario anyone might have made up.

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  2. Also it's more "true to life", as they say. In real life, nothing happens, or not much. Maybe it's just as well, because the news could be subtitled "what went wrong today".

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  3. As I mentioned to someone about this, had I not heard that giggle - in fact she did it a couple of times, they were joking about something, maybe because they both noticed my fly was open (it wasn't...I don't think) - but without that giggle I'd have forgotten the whole thing.

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  4. I've been back to the Wal-Mart at least twice since then (nearly once a day, actually - pathetic, really) and am relieved that nobody mentioned seeing the poem - this one or the one I wrote last month about the eyes. I know I have several readers in Gloucester, but maybe they don't shop at Wal-Mart.

    I like that fisherman's head, btw. Thanks again, Margaret.

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