At any rate, as I have no talent whatsoever with drawing or painting, gifs are about all I can manage. I have to parcel out my energy very carefully these days, and it gets wearying, I can tell you. I don't know what's next, as every day the political nightmare in the U. S. gets worse in ways that are downright macabre.
BUT, on my own personal front, I'm making progress medically, slowly, getting mobility back and re-entering the larger world, at a time when everything is springing back to life, including fat clusters of cherry blossoms that give me great joy. The rest of it is followup, but today I had to have yet another CT scan, something to do with my lungs, which has nothing at all to do with the surgery, so who knows. A spot on my lung? Doesn't that mean lung cancer? What next, I wonder? Order my tombstone now while it's on sale.
This has been one of the hardest passages of my entire life, and that hospital stay was the worst, with pain that made childbirth seem like a minor inconvenience. There was a nightmarish quality to it all, as if I was fading in and out of consciousness, full of drugs and not even sure what was real and what I was dreaming.
I have some technical problems with videos that are even worse, but I literally won't allow myself to pursue it and figure out if it's as bad as I fear it is. If so, my YouTube channel is terminated forever, because I won't be able to upload anything. Ever. At all. As it is, things are weird, changing in a way I don't want, with no control, of course. And I'm supposed to be OK with this?? I'm not, but I have a super-high-tech son who has so far rescued me from many a tech crisis (including the outright death of a computer a few years ago).
So, we just passed Easter, which is all about death and resurrection, and the poor Pope died after talking to Vance (it would kill anyone), and Trump ripped into everyone he hates as his "Easter message".
So like everyone in Canada, all I can do is VOTE (which I did today) and hope for the best, which of course won't happen. But let's not prepare for the worst, as we wouldn't even be around to prepare for anything.
