Thursday, October 8, 2020

The Red Diary: a cycle of poems inspired by the diary of Anne Frank (part two of four)


The Red Diary

A cycle of narrative poems inspired by the diary of Anne Frank
by Margaret Gunning

Part two of four



To the memory of Anne Frank


                                                         THE BOOK OF PAGES
 Your hand

I open the book of pages
for the first time in thirty-five years,
and there it is, completely unexpected:
your handwriting.
Small and neat and precise,
yet vigorous and sure;
not the hand of a fragile girl.
The words are unfamiliar to me,
written in Dutch,
yet the sense of concentration, of focus
is palpable, complete.
These are words of absolute commitment,
of clear and open eyes, a steady hand –
the purest account.

Birthday

It opens with a jolly eager telling
of presents, “a darling brooch”
and “a terrific book”, Daisy Goes to the Mountains.
Your schoolmates dance around you in
a circle, and sing.
A line jumps out at me:  “I’ve never had
a real friend.”
Yet you talk about your friends
in a way that would have made them squirm:
J. R. “a detestable, sneaky, stuck-up, two-faced gossip”,
Jacque “a terrible show-off”,
(“She thinks she’s gorgeous, but she’s not”).
Hanneli, your best friend:  “she blabs whatever you tell her to her mother.”
G. Z.:  “She has a nice face, but is kind of dumb.”
Did they know they were under this microscope,
this steady dark gaze
that penetrated the vulnerable
without mercy?
You laughed, skipped and sang,
but your perception was deadly.
Oh, little girl –
Oh, little girl –
what you will live through!

Put away thoughts of Bergen-Belsen,

of the harrowing end.
Live.  Skip and dance;
skip and dance.

 Boys

Suddenly this is different:  these words
were not there when I read you in my girlhood.
“Sallie Springer has a filthy mind,
and rumour has it that he’s gone
all the way.”
At thirteen, you knew the boys were
sex-mad.
But this:  “Werner Joseph is nice,
too, but all the changes taking place lately
have made him too quiet, so he
seems boring.”
All the changes.
The changes.

I don’t have a friend

You stood apart.
The seeds were there, even as you worried
that no one would want to look at
the scribblings of a teenaged girl.
“I don’t have a friend,” you wrote,
even surrounded by giggling girls,
even though the boys were mad for you
(and I believe you!  It was all that life.
So unquenchable.
Your vibrancy.
Your passionate nature, though surely a virgin,
touching only in your mind,
that vivid, cloistered garden.)



 Hiding

You dress in as many layers as possible:
three sets of underwear, two pairs of stockings,
a dress, a skirt, a jacket. . .
it is not safe to be seen with a suitcase.
Everything is unknown; the family
tries to contain its terror.
With your usual candour, you write,
“I was suffocating, even before we left
the house,
but no one bothered to ask me how I felt.”
The place is called the Secret Annex,
a striking play on words.
Little sentences peep out,
shivering with import:
“We’ve forbidden Margot to
cough at night, even though she has
a bad cold.”
But your spirit buoys you.
It’s almost fun.
At first.
“It’s really not that bad here,” you say.
(Later on, you add this note:
“I’m terrified our hiding place
will be discovered
and that we’ll be shot.”)
You miss your cat, cry for her loss.
Then the Van Daans arrive, and you
speak of Peter, that his company won’t
amount to much. (“What a dope!”)
The secret doorway is a bookcase that swings on a hinge.
It is easy to bump your head.
What I see is the ordinariness.
The boredom and irritation
of forced proximity with dense, dull adults,
the irritation of
a smarter older sister, brilliant in her studies,
well-behaved, unlike you;
“perfection itself”.
Anne feels tired, she feels lazy,
she feels overwhelmed, yet
she is the one to unpack all the furniture
and put the place in order
while her mother and sister
sit in the corner, dazed, in shock.
That night, with her last bit of energy,
she writes.
Always, she writes.
  
Hiding (2)

Sometimes I hid, but it was different.
So different.
I will not compare.
I would hide in a closet, with an
Indian blanket over the door.
Something was not right; there was a
soreness,
a smell.
I was afraid to come out, Anne.
It was not the same.

You adored your father;
I feared mine.
There was a crack in my world,
and it split everything,
even my spirit.
The closet was my secret place.
I had my own definition of “safe”.
I did not hear guns in the distance at night,
I was not crammed into an attic, labelled Juden,
stamped, relegated, forced into seclusion.
I went about freely, I looked all right, I passed for normal.
But hear me, Anne:  I was broken.
Blood came in the night.
Fear crept into my world,
and a certain paralysis.

Some part of me did not come out.
Would not.
Dared not.
I could not show myself.
What I was, a girl, made me vulnerable.
It was not the same.
But still I had to hide myself.
  

Meditation (an interlude)

Is this presumptuous?
Dare I say this?  I feel that I know you.
Is it the candour of your voice,
the trivia, the games,
the petty arguments, squabbles with your mother,
the tales of cats
kept not for pets, but to keep down the mice and rats,
of clothing:  knitting a new white sweater
and having to ask your father permission
for even this tiny luxury,
all this, all this stuff of
sheer dailiness, the daily tread,
that makes this a living account,
fresh as the day it was born?
The thing is, you knew.
You were not a total innocent:  you knew
such a work had value,
the radio told you
that these were momentous times,
that a record must be kept.
In between the dailiness
you quote Churchill, that this is not the beginning of the end,
but perhaps the end of the beginning.
It is 1942
and you are thirteen years old.
I smile at your eagerness to be famous.
It is so unguarded,
so girlish,
and  became so powerfully true,
beyond what you could have imagined.
That hope kept you writing
when your heart was leaden with fatigue
and boredom
and confinement, when you had another headache,
when the time seemed endless,
when you were sick of all those people,
the Van Daans and their pointless squabbling,
dull old Dussel, hoarding food and luxuries,
Peter, sweet and steadfast
but unequal to your mind,
the same, always the same,
the black-papered windows
and guns in the night,
and perpetual fear.
I try to see you now:
you would have been seventy-five,
perhaps a grandmother;
Anne, I am a grandmother, I have been blessed,
I lift my grandbaby high in the air
and she squeals in delight, the future.
Yet I complain about outrageous things,
the petty complaints of a full belly
and a good husband
and grown children
and a secure bed.

Quicksilver Anne

How funny you are.
I laugh out loud at this:
“I have a terrible pain in my index finger
(on my left hand),
so I can’t do any ironing.
What luck!”
And this:  the “prospectus” for the
Secret Annex:
“A Unique Facility for the Temporary Accommodation of Jews
and Other Dispossessed Persons
Open all year round:  Located in
beautiful, quiet, wooded surroundings
in the heart of Amsterdam.”
(And this:  “Only the language of civilized
people may be spoken, thus no German.”)
How could one laugh
when the pressures of history were bearing down
like a glacier
with annihilating force.
But all this tells me
that Hitler was not winning,
that his hideous scheme
would fail.  Even so.
Six million.
At the least.
And all the others:  the souls that have no name.

The fear

How different this diary
from the one I read as a girl,
forbidden passages
restored,
how much you adored your father,
how you called him Pim,
how bitterly you clashed with your mother,
disdained your perfect sister,
spoke of the unspeakable,
the stirrings of early womanhood
strong in you,
the attraction,
the curiosity about forbidden things,
your boredom and exasperation
at the pettiness of the Van Daans,
and why must we stay with people
we don’t even like,
their endless complaining
and criticism,
bickering over a spoonful of butter, an extra slice of bread –
and your need to be better,
to master yourself,
be calmer, quieter, more mature,
but how could you be better than this,
bearing witness to the daily round,
filled with shock
at the fate of those who were not so fortunate.
This is an Anne who is angry.
This is an Anne who will not keep silent.
She will speak; she will speak.
Margot kept a diary too,
likely a milder, safer record,
or did she keep it at all,
under these impossible pressures.
I know how you needed to write.
It was your way of containing the fear,
of managing the unmanageable.
How do I say this?  Anne: I wrote.
The fears were different.
I was not safe in my home.
I did not adore my father.
I could not thrive.
It was different.  Yes.  Different,
another set of atrocities,
on an intimate scale.
I was not whole.  But I wrote,
pressing the pieces together
into the semblance of human,
when I feared I was something less,
a mere receptacle for poisons,
accumulated grief
passed down the generations
forever and ever,
into this dead end of a person, myself.
Stop the train, oh, stop the train
with your body,
try to stop the generational damage
before it annihilates your children;
stop it, stop it now,
before it is too late.
Anne, I wrote too, as a way of hanging on,
holding on to myself
in a place of silences
and secrets
and terror
and despair.




 The bells:  I

“The Westertoren bells stopped chiming,”
you write on a Thursday in 1943,
“and I’d always found them
so comforting.”
Another day, the bread ration
is cancelled.
(No bread.  No bread -)
Machine-gun fire rips open
your sleep.
Rats scurry thick in the night.
Hitler rants, struts on the radio.
You can’t go outside.  You wonder.
You wonder if your optimism is warranted,
if these forces might win.
Sometimes terror turns to laughter,
releasing some of the unbearable tension
until the next threat.
You are so aware, quivering
like a tuning fork,
so sensitive to change,
to the mammoth forces
that press down on the eight of you,
the knowledge
there may be no future.
Your beloved Pim
insists on hope,
but how much of this is for his daughters,
how much raw fear
splits his sleep?
Your mother weeps
because she cannot reach you.
You push her away.
You can be cold.
But this is a bulwark
against the tide of terror,
it’s all you have
to preserve yourself.
The food grows scarce
and poor, beans, a bit of cabbage,
crumbling old bread
not fit for a rat.
All your shoes are too small,
so you go about in stockings,
which is much quieter.
One of your helpers begins to bleed inside:   cancer.
Who will help you now?
Where will the food come from
When will you walk outside again
when
when?
You cast your imagination into the future
by some immense act of will,
and force yourself to carry on.

The writer

I can’t begin to fathom it:   how I love you.
I love how you reveal yourself,
rant, complain,
then reprimand yourself:  how fortunate we are;
how blessed.
Life and circumstance demand
you discipline yourself
daily, and hour by hour
so that terror will not win.
I see you leaning over your diary,
working at it, making it exact,
your dark head bent in concentration,
the red-covered journal
a focus, a listening ear.
You speak of Churchill, of Gandhi, of Mussolini,
towering figures,
you follow the battles day by day,
coloured pins stuck in a map
right next to the pencil marks
on the wall
marking your growth, and Margot’s growth,
so ordinary,
and all the while
changes are happening in your body,
you are becoming a woman
right there, in captivity,
hormones are coursing through your blood,
forcing the changes,
the blooming,
the desire.
You dream of babies, and of getting married one day,
then change your mind:  No.  I will be a writer.
My name will be known:  Anneliese Marie



Frank

A M. Frank
Anne Frank
A  M. Holländer
(no:  not your mother’s name - )
Or perhaps both:  a husband who understands?
I shall be a journalist.
(Novelist?)  But I must be good enough.
I must hone my craft.
Then in the next breath
you write of the antics of cats,
of beans spilling down the stairs,
of a toilet blocked with strawberry recipes,
all that you had for paper.
Yet in these details
comes the life, the veracity, the true
breath of that stifling little place,
we are there,
we share it with you,
Anne,
you open it for us,
make it bearable,
the unspeakable made real.

I love you

I love you, because you seem to understand
wounds,
hiddenness,
fear that can’t be acknowledged;
and though your terror was not my terror
I could not grow,
I was dwarfed,
struggled between rocks,
curled in on myself
in my own private annex of fear.
I was afraid of my father.
Nightly the door opened,
a flash of light,
then darkness, strangeness, I could not breathe,
something was stopping my breath,
I would never breathe again –
something unspeakable.
Yet it did not happen.
There were no six million – surely it was
all blown out of proportion,
only a few thousand
died (and they probably deserved it),
and who will believe
the unreliable memory
of a little girl?
So she climbed behind the wall of the room
and hid
until the violation was over
and she could fall back asleep again,
only a terrible taste in her mouth
to remind her of the shock,
the loathing,
the stopped lungs and silenced screams
of devastating damage.

 The bells:  II

“The Westertoren bells
have been carted off
to be melted down for the war.”
Then the radio, your precious
conduit to the outside,
the lovely old cabinet radio
is taken away.
No voices; no news; no music
to dance to, to sing to,
and your helpers scramble to find another,
much smaller, to sneak in
along with the day’s supplies.
The world tightens, contracts.
You hum to keep away fear.
There are flea bites on your ankles.
You peel potatoes
and listen to the incessant quarreling
of the grownups,
the Van Daans hissing at each other again
so pointless, so pointless
and pray that your marriage is not like that,
if you live to see it happen.


Wednesday, October 7, 2020

The Red Diary: a cycle of poems inspired by the Diary of Anne Frank (part one of four)



The Red Diary

A cycle of narrative poems inspired by the diary of Anne Frank
by Margaret Gunning

Part one of four



                                                            To the memory of Anne Frank

I remember my affliction and my wandering,
the bitterness and the gall.
I well remember them,
and my soul is downcast within me.
Yet this I call to mind
and therefore I have hope:
Because of the Lord’s great love we are
not consumed,
for his compassions never fail.
They are new every morning;
great is your faithfulness.

                                                                    - Lamentations 3: 19 - 23

                                                        INTRODUCTION

      Very early on a summer morning, I had a long and strange dream about Anne Frank.
     This came after what seemed like an eternity of dryness and lack of inspiration in my work, when the ground was so parched the flakes of earth curled under the sun.  In the dream, I was incarcerated in a Nazi prison camp.  I was very earnestly trying to put together a book of my own, a sort of diary, only it was being compiled according to a rigid set of specifications, many of which made no sense.  I was (as it were) only following orders.
     In this dream, I had a certain awareness that I would soon be executed, though I was not sure what I had done to deserve it.  This caused me more resignation than fear.  Then I was looking through the original of Anne Frank’s diary, only the pages were made of a very sheer, fragile, almost iridescent glass, and were full of photographs and ghostly, glowing images.  There were no words.  I said to someone beside me (perhaps a fellow prisoner), “This life means something, no matter how short.  It stands for something, and it will be remembered.  It is a lesson.”
     Then I was actually standing in the presence of Anne Frank, small and dark and intense, exactly as she appeared in her famous photographs.  Without speaking the words aloud, I asked her, “You know how this ends, don’t you?”  She knew, and I knew that she knew, even though she did not say a word.
     There was an extraordinary feeling of touching her essence, as if there were no real border between us, even though in this dream I was not myself, but a soldier, a man.  The rest of the symbolism and puzzles of this dream remain a mystery, some riddle my psyche would rather I not resolve.
      At about the same time, something unexpected happened: I began to see a lot of newspaper and magazine articles about Anne Frank, as the world marked the 60th anniversary of the discovery of her hiding place in Amsterdam.  She would have been 75 years old at the time I was writing, probably a mother and a grandmother, and it is impossible for me to believe that her remarkable writing would have stopped in her youth.  This sense of anniversary and of what might have been made the writing experience especially poignant for me.
     The strange vision I experienced on that summer morning was so vivid it affected me almost like an electric shock, forcing me to take a look at the extremes of human valour, humble self-revelation, sacrifice, art. . . all the things I admire and crave, yet fear that I lack.   My immediate reaction was feeling that I was not worthy to write about this, that I had no claim on Anne Frank or anything she stood for; I am not a Jew, I don’t remember the war, and at the time of the dream, I had not read Anne’s diary for some thirty-five years, so my memories were hazy at best.
     But something compelling was set in motion by this dream, and I did begin to write, even in the face of my doubt and fear.  The dream also compelled me to re-read the diary, this time in the “definitive edition” of 1995, which includes a wealth of material not present in the carefully edited version I had read as a girl.  It seems that the world is now ready to encounter a more human Anne, sometimes angry and critical (especially towards her mother), and always true to her name in her frankness about sexuality, spirituality and all the abiding mysteries of life.
     Daily I would read a section of the diary, no more than twenty pages at a time, as more than that would have been overwhelming.   Daily I struggled to respond in poetry to this astonishing document, so well written that it would be the envy of any mature professional writer.  At the same time, I was reading biographical material from other sources to fill in the background.  I also discovered the superb Oscar-winning documentary film Anne Frank Remembered, which I highly recommend to anyone interested in this compelling subject.
     Through writing this long poem, I began to re-experience traumatic events in my own early life, and I had a decision to make as to whether to include them in the work.  In the final analysis, I felt I had little choice, as the material kept presenting itself, more and more insistently.  It was a creative risk I had to take, in spite of my continued struggle with an unresolveable dilemma: how dare I claim to have suffered in the face of the horrendous abyss of the Holocaust? 
     Though I did not completely lay this internal battle to rest, I did continue with my poetic response to Anne’s diary until it was completed to the best of my ability. Though much of the original dream remains a mystery to me, I believe it was a gift of sorts, as well as a creative spur. I was being asked, even invited, to take a deeper look at something powerful, something ultimate, perhaps even transformative.  In the face of my own doubt and fear, I had to follow this bright red thread wherever it would lead me.


  
                                                       DREAM OF ANNE FRANK

Dream

when I opened your book of pages
a glass butterfly with manifold wings
I knew I had no pages
except according to directions
that made no sense:  I was only following orders!
but you were there, a slip of a girl
a slice of pure meaning
pure illumination
and sacrifice
and I wondered how I dared to look – knew
I was not worthy to look,
but had to look – could not avert my eyes,
as you could not avert your
steady brown gaze, those eyes that saw
to the core of so many things.
I was some sort of broken soldier
imprisoned,
except I was on the wrong side,
always in the wrong. . .  and commanded
to make a book that had no meaning,
according to illogic’s rules.
And I obeyed.
I always followed orders,
so that my book had no meaning
and no sense.
Your book shone like
gold teeth, like eyeglasses
in a heap,
frail hoarded visions,
all the images
of the millions
who can no longer see.
How could you know at fourteen
what we lose when we age, the clarity
that saw through surface grumpiness,
bad smells, bad temper
to shining selves in a war for integrity.
Shut away, you blossomed.
Impossible.  Impossible that you could
bring forth such clarity, such an account:
you were only telling what you saw,
but you said everything, held nothing back.
Such hard truth.  Such audacity.
Destroyed:  yes, snuffed out
by other humans; will my mind ever
comprehend the reeling contradiction?
Is this why I despise myself?
What sort of Nazi am I, that tramples the
butterfly,
that pulls out gold teeth by the roots?


 

 Forgiveness

 Is forgiveness impossible
in being on the wrong side?
Can I shut up the yammering Hitler in my
head?
My dreams are grimy newsreels
of pompous oppression
and silently shrieking crowds
that fall into lockstep,
the fresh-faced, wholesome youth
who gaze up smiling
at the face of their saviour.
Anne floats above all.  Freed.
Not held to this earth,
this place of pain.
But we needed her.  We needed her to stay.
Her vacancy is like the cavity of a
pulled tooth.
We will miss her forever.
My heart slowly turns
inside-out
and I am eviscerated,
my body an empty cavity
through which a raw wind blows.

I am not a Jew

 But I never knew her.
She was never mine.
What claim do I have on her?
I am not a Jew.
On the wrong side.  The other.
Not the one who saved.
Not the one who redeemed.
I would not hide a Jew.
I would not risk that shadow in my house.
My heart skulked, scurried like rats.
My neighbor left a loaf of bread on the doorstep
daily until the famine was over.
I kept the bread for myself:  shooting Jewish dogs
in the head.
My soul writhes.
There was no other.
I was the Jew.But I could not see.

 Anne

You appeared to me
quite early in the morning,
and for all the world
it was as if I was looking at you
straight and clear
as you were in life,
small and dark and neat,
graceful as a young tree,
with a charming smile and a dimple,
lively eyes
and a brain like chain-lightning.
Such small frail shoulders to support
so many millions,
the fragments of hope,
just enough,
just enough to carry on.
For these words, these words,
I will live another day,
I will not end this,
twist though my heart might
in anguish,
all meaning flown away.
One small pure flame of integrity
will sustain my life, will carry me through
the long
and impossible night.



 Forced bloom

 You said so much
about life in captivity.
You said so much about proximity
forced by circumstance
(cruel, unusual)
and forces of history
meted out in matchsticks, daily bread
and bickering over the least of things.
Bread, and soldiers
and marching steps
and radio broadcasts that crackled with static
and import
you must have known where you were
in history
even as young as you were,
that someone had to do it,
to bear witness to the dailiness, the strain,
the tiny flashes
of inextinguishable joy.
What gave you such steadiness?  I quail before you.
My head spins in astonishment.
Life had not taught you that you couldn’t;
and so you could, and did.
Barely in your teens, your gift was full-blown;
you knew you were doing the work.
And what is more, you had the valour
and the persistence
to keep getting up in the morning
to face all those people
who got on your nerves
who barely comprehended you
(even if they loved you),
who could not tell you anything,
offer any hope, any sense of a way,
a way back to life in full.
The overpowering tectonic forces of history
molded you, matured you
before your time,
forced like a rare orchid
into rich bloom
in a stifling corner.
A certain fearlessness
sustained you,
though the grownups must have been
paralyzed with anxiety,
barely able to sleep or work or make love
in the shadow of unspeakable fear.
Was it your youth, your spirit,
was your courage so much greater,
or did your daily words, your task,
put the heart in you
while the others sank
in anguish and despair?           


                         

                                                                  THE DIARY 

It is a holy document.
One would expect a grand binding
of leather and gold,
or parchment paper with gilt edges,
but instead it’s a jolly little thing,
gaily covered in red-and-green plaid
with a lock and key for privacy.
An ordinary girl’s diary, a birthday
present, a potential, a book of pages,
and for you, with such a gift,
a companion.
Kitty, you called it, and it looks like a Kitty
in a bright stylish coat,
fun and flirtatious,
tossing her dark hair, light and careless of heart.
And the early entries
are all about bicycle rides,
and boys,
and testing out your power
as a woman,
though even in this time of freedom,
you felt the menace closing in.
Jews must wear a yellow star,
must badge themselves
with this symbol so strangely beautiful,
two triangles, a double trine of fire,
a requirement, a signal, a delineation,
a branding of otherness,
of look, look, I am a Jew, I cannot hide
what I am,
I must wear it all the time on my breast
right next to my heart
so the enemy can watch me,
can keep his eyes on me,
and use my own symbol of power
and covenant
against me.
Jews must wear a yellow star,
Jews cannot go out at night,
Jews cannot visit with Christians,
Jews must not go to the market
in the day time. . .
and on and on, the restrictions,
the confinements,
closing in like a hand.
Inside this bright plaid coat
fear lurks,
death lurks
yet walks with light step, defiant.
Like klezmer music,
a light spirit is ultimate resistance,
a refusal to be bowed.
And so you sat and wrote:  Dear Kitty.
And this girlish, kittenish companion
caught all your thoughts, received your days.
She sat and listened.
She was fascinated with you.
You focused down, you became absorbed,

and you wrote what you saw.






Monday, October 5, 2020

"Fainting, I follow: lovers who run with the deer


   




A snow white doe in an emerald glade
To me appeared, with antlers soft of gold, 
And leapt two streams, under a laurel's shade,
Near sunrise, in the winter's bitter cold.
To me she appeared wild treasure so fair
I was so distraught my eyes fell to stare,
As if, poor miser pursuing his gold,
I might find relief for grievance of old.
I spied on her neck, "No one dares touch me",
Graven in topaz and diamond stones,
"For Caesar wills I should always run free."
The sun had ascended to zenith, and she
was gone in a flash, lost in its pale gleam.
While I still chased her, I fell in that stream!

Petrarch Sonnet 190







Whoso List to Hunt

Whoso list to hunt, I know where is an hind!
But as for me, hélas, I may no more.
The vain travail hath wearied me so sore,
I am of them that farthest cometh behind.
Yet may I by no means my wearied mind
Draw from the deer, but as she fleeth afore
Fainting I follow. I leave off therefore,
Sithens in a net I seek to hold the wind.
Who list her hunt, I put him out of doubt,
As well as I may spend his time in vain.
And graven with diamonds in letters plain
There is written, her fair neck round about:
Noli me tangere, for Caesar's I am,
And wild for to hold, though I seem tame.

Thomas Wyatt 
 

 

Wednesday, September 30, 2020

Stephen Fry, Stephen Fry

 


Since this is a lovely and balmy day,
Let's look at a certain man today.

Not just any man, you see
But a man who is funny, ho ho ha hee.



Stephen Fry, Stephen Fry
When you come on public television,
it's almost like I die.





















When you talked about Wagner
and Hitler and such,
I saw your green jacket
and just liked it so much.

You lost a lot of weight there,
you great big kermudge,
But I'm glad you found a shrink or
your brain might now be sludge.
























Stephen Fry, Stephen Fry
When you go off to Bayreuth it just makes me cry.
When you sat down to play that piano so great,
It made my heart kaboom and palpitate.

And you surely got my sympathy vote
When you tried to hit one key and got the wrong note.


And when you did that show on bipolar disorder,
It made me just pack up and run for the border.



Stephen Fry, Stephen Fry
You drive me all nutty, I don't know just why.
Maybe you're crazy, that's part of your myth,
And even if you're gay I just wait for your kith.

























I found out at last why girls like you so,
And boys of course too, vo-do-de-o-do.
Your face is all craggy, it looks so unique
Like Easter Island or a great mountain peak.





















Yes, you have that Stonehenge look, you know
That makes the women moan very low.



I don't know how you do it, so effortless it seems,
So forever, silly person, you will dwell in my dreams.

 

(I confess right here and now that this is a repeat! But it was inspired by some of the recent interviews I've seen of SF. My passion has not changed!!)