I believe this is ALL the Baxter commercials for Meow Mix. If you know of any others, PLEASE let me know! Surely Baxter was the ultimate in feline advertisement, outmeowing Morris (though he had more staying power, I think). The other two are also Meow Mix ads at their finest: the infamous Close Encounters of the Meow Kind, and the even-more-infamous Disco Kitties. I can never get enough of these, and it's the first time I've had them all in one place!
Friday, August 7, 2020
Thursday, August 6, 2020
GEE, ANTHONY FAUCI! - A Randy Rainbow Song Parody
Ohhh, OK. . . I know I just finished dissing the satirists, but I stumbled on this guy and it was just too excruciatingly GOOD not to share. The thing is, though it is satire, the chorus is "We're in hell, we're in hell. . ." - which they certainly are. His lyrics are amazing, and I love how he calls Trump "gurl".
Wednesday, August 5, 2020
So how DO we get through all this shit?
I find myself posting outrageous Trump stories (most of them connected directly to a jaw-dropping denial that COVID-19 even exists), then feeling bad about just passing all that negative energy along. But there are times I honestly do not know what else to do.
I keep vowing I'll learn to ignore all this, but if you're a sentient being who cares at all about the world, you can't just tune it all out. You can't "process" it, as the expression goes, because nobody wants to swallow toxic shit. It just runneth over, kind of, and though I do try to deal with one day at a time, and though PART of today was really good (sandhill cranes on Burnaby Lake, a blackbird eating out of my hand), my day can take a hairpin turn towards incredulous dismay and even depression. And I keep saying to myself, my God, why are you getting depressed about THIS?
I have no control over it, except, as the trite saying goes, "my attitude towards it". So am I supposed to be optimistic, neutral, or what? I don't know how to feel about it. I am not at all surprised liquor consumption is through the roof now, especially with people who do not usually drink heavily. I stopped drinking in 1990 (darn it all), so that rather self-defeating avenue is closed to me. I want to stop posting Trump stories, but I feel like I have to share them to take some of the crushing load off. I try to not post long blurts, and at least part of today was great, but one thing does not cancel out another. The evening news is now so breathtakingly grotesque that I sometimes flee the room halfway through.
We cannot escape the primitive workings of the reptilian brain which is supposedly in charge of the free world. I also realize with dismay how heavily satirized and sent up Trump has been for more than four years, and how it has done nothing at all to change an astonishingly dangerous situation. In fact, satire and laughter is a way to escape and make things LESS awful. Humor is a distancing tool and a survival mechanism, but it's also a way to put unpleasant things away from you. I always used to think: yes, Alec Baldwin is brilliant in this role, but it just ain't funny, folks. It's making a completely unacceptable situation palatable through the endorphin-burst of a good laugh. Not that much different from taking a few stiff shots.
I have bipolar disorder and have started writing about it more lately, thinking, well, what have I got to lose? I'm not protecting anything, and (as the kid in the playground said long ago) nobody likes me anyway. But if this revelation affects how people feel about me, either way, well, that's not why I'm doing it. Right now, I'm doing it because some days, like today, I am trying to hang on to a rope bare-handed that is coated in a particularly deadly, slick oil, and though my desperate hand-over-hand is now so fast it's a blur, I feel I'm losing ground a lot of the time because there is nothing but an abyss below me. At present, I have NO medical support whatsoever, NO avenue for counselling, and basically have to keep my problems to myself. So the hackneyed exhortation to "reach out for help" isn't very helpful right now, as it doesn't seem to apply to me.
Will I get through this? I really don't know. Everyone is doing an awful lot of whistling in the dark - again, as a survival mechanism, and as a way to put the unpleasantness away from us so we can get on with some kind of a day. I have never known the world to have this many overwhelming problems on this scale, all at once, and even with the best President in the world, things would still be harrowing, a long and heavy grind for everyone, and downright catastrophic for some.
I tell myself: OK then, I'm a Canadian, I might have this mental condition but I'm not quite hospital material (yet!), my husband and I are well and have a roof over our heads, our kids are employed and doing well and so are THEIR kids. I tell myself all this, many, many times a day, but the dismay still pours over me and creeps into every crevice like a thick and very toxic fog.
So. . . I keep getting up in the morning like everyone else, with no safety net medically or mentally (and it's ironic that during my long years of stability, I had more "help" than I ever needed, even if it was the wrong kind). Now there's just nothing, and many times a day I say, OK then, I'm being thrown back on my own resources, and might this not be a test of my ability to - to - oh fuck, I give up! It's not like that at all. I want my Mum, and even when she was alive she was indifferent to me, to the point that I was not even mentioned in her obituary, a fact which most people find hard to believe. But I want SOMEBODY'S Mum, and I am tired of trying to reflexively "mother myself" when I just don't have anything left in me to nurture anyone at all.
Tuesday, August 4, 2020
Trump's nonsensical self-justifying drivel: "What the f*ck is he talking about?"
PIERS MORGAN: President Trump's painfully deluded train-wreck HBO interview proved he hasn't just lost control of the coronavirus – he's lost control of reality
By Piers Morgan for MailOnline
Published:
07:33 EDT ,
4 August 2020
| Updated: 11:26 EDT ,
4
August 2020
In every great
American crisis, there is a moment where the whole world can see the true
character of a President.
For George W. Bush it
came when he was photographed staring down from the luxurious comfort of Air
Force One on the wreckage wrought by Hurricane Katrina, after his government's
woefully inadequate federal response. The picture made him look detached and
uncaring, and worst of all, a weak and ineffectual leader. He never recovered
from it.
For Bill Clinton, it
came with his infamous 'I did not have sexual relations with that woman, Ms
Lewinsky' declaration. When it turned out he had indeed had multiple sexual
relations with that woman, his reputation was badly damaged.
Conversely, for John
F. Kennedy, you could point to his rousing 1962 speech challenging America to go to the moon, instilling in Americans a spirit
of unlimited optimism, as the moment when he sparked a deep abiding popularity
that lasts to this day.
Similarly, for
Ronald Reagan, his audacious 'Mr Gorbachev, tear down this wall!' command at Berlin 's Brandenburg Gate to the leader of the Soviet Union , cemented his place in history.
For President Donald
J. Trump, there have been many grim moments during his catastrophic handling of
the coronavirus pandemic that may end up defining his presidency.
But last night,
during an extraordinary, toe-curling HBO interview with AXIOS's Jonathan Swan,
he exposed just why the US has become a horrifyingly bad template for how NOT to
combat Covid-19.
In an attempt to
defend his indefensible record, and specifically why the US has one of the worst death rates in the world, Trump
suddenly produced a collection of graphics.
'Look at some of
these charts,' he said. 'This one, right here, the United States is lowest…in numerous categories…lower than the
world.'
'In what?' said an
incredulous Swan.
'Take a look,' said
Trump, handing the chart over.
Swan, a very good
and well-prepared journalist, studied the chart quickly and forensically.
'Oh, you're doing
death as a proportion of cases,' he replied. 'I'm talking about death as a
proportion of population.'
'Well… well…' Trump
stammered.
'That's where the US is really bad,' persisted Swan, 'much worse than South Korea , Germany etc.'
'You can't do that!'
exclaimed Trump.
'Why can't I do
that?' asked Swan, looking understandably confused.
It was a stunning
exchange.
'You know there are
those that say you can test too much,' Trump blathered. 'You do know that?'
Swan didn't know
that, because nobody other than Trump has said that.
'Who says that?'
Swan asked.
'Oh, just read the
manuals,' Trump retorted. 'Read the books.'
'Manuals?' Swan
pressed. 'What manuals?'
Of course, there are
no manuals, or books, that say you can do too much coronavirus testing.
Obviously, as any
scientist will attest, you can never do enough testing. It's the only way to
get on top of this virus until there's a vaccine.
What Trump actually
means is that he wishes America did less testing so they didn't have so many cases
because it makes HIM look bad.
That's why he
doesn't want to talk about America 's appalling death toll because, again, it makes HIM
look bad.
'A thousand people
are dying a day,' Swan told him.
'They are dying,'
replied Trump. 'It's true. It is what it is.'
'It is what it is' -
that was the President's staggering response to the ongoing horrific slaughter
of Americans by a deadly virus.
No empathy, no
apology, no expression of sorrow.
Just a heartless,
dismissive shrug.
The problem for
Trump in this crisis is that the stats don't lie like he does.
When Swan pointed
out that South
Korea
has a population of 51 million people but has only suffered 300 coronavirus
deaths, Trump inferred, with zero evidence, that the statistics were fake news.
It's his default
response to any facts he doesn't like, but now he is being exposed by the cold,
hard reality of data-backed truth.
The World Health
Organisation reports today there have been 18,100,204 confirmed cases of
coronavirus in the world, and 690,257 deaths.
Of these, America has had 4,629,459 cases, which is 25% of the global
total, and 154,226 deaths which is 22% of the global total.
So whichever way you
look at the numbers, the United States is doing catastrophically badly.
Trump knows it,
everyone knows it.
But he also knows if
he admits it, it may cost him the election in November.
So, he's now reduced
to lying, obfuscating, deflecting, and anything else he can think of to avoid
being held accountable for what has happened on his watch.
Last night,
Americans saw their President deny the incontrovertible.
They saw him pretend
he's got coronavirus under control when he's completely lost control.
And they saw him
challenged relentlessly on all this bullsh*t by a top-class journalist
determined not to let him off the hook.
It made for
electrifying but very unedifying viewing, combining the detached uncaring
conduct of George W. Bush during the Katrina crisis with Bill Clinton's cynical
lying about Monica Lewinsky.
There were many
other awful moments during the interview, including Trump once again offering
weirdly uncritical support to accused child sex trafficker Ghislaine Maxwell,
refusing to call the late civil rights campaigning legend Congressman John
Lewis, 'impressive' because Lewis hadn't gone to his inauguration, and stoking
self-serving fears of election night mail voting fraud.
But it was his
meandering disingenuous nonsense about coronavirus that swiftly went viral
around the world.
Some people on
social media even assumed it must be a comedy sketch given how preposterous it
appeared and the fact it was appearing on a network famed for shows like Veep
and Succession.
This, sadly, was
very real.
I didn't laugh.
Instead, I cringed,
I despaired, and then I felt angry.
Trump's made the
crisis all about him, not the American people.
As a result, the
American people are dying in massive numbers all over the country.
Jonathan Swan's
constantly bemused face last night perfectly summed up what we were all
thinking as the President brandished his meaningless self-serving charts and
spouted his nonsensical self-justifying drivel: what the f*ck is he talking
about?
Monday, August 3, 2020
The lost Lenore
Once upon a midnight dreary, while I pondered, weak and weary,
Over many a quaint and curious volume of forgotten lore—
While I nodded, nearly napping, suddenly there came a tapping,
As of some one gently rapping, rapping at my chamber door.
“’Tis some visitor,” I muttered, “tapping at my chamber door
Only this and nothing more.”
Ah, distinctly I remember it was in the bleak December;
And each separate dying ember wrought its ghost upon the floor.
Eagerly I wished the morrow;—vainly I had sought to borrow
From my books surcease of sorrow—sorrow for the lost Lenore—
For the rare and radiant maiden whom the angels name Lenore—
Nameless here for evermore.
And the silken, sad, uncertain rustling of each purple curtain
Thrilled me—filled me with fantastic terrors never felt before;
So that now, to still the beating of my heart, I stood repeating
“’Tis some visitor entreating entrance at my chamber door
Some late visitor entreating entrance at my chamber door;—
This it is and nothing more.”
Presently my soul grew stronger; hesitating then no longer,
“Sir,” said I, “or Madam, truly your forgiveness I implore;
But the fact is I was napping, and so gently you came rapping,
And so faintly you came tapping, tapping at my chamber door,
That I scarce was sure I heard you”—here I opened wide the door;—
Darkness there and nothing more.
Deep into that darkness peering, long I stood there wondering, fearing,
Doubting, dreaming dreams no mortal ever dared to dream before;
But the silence was unbroken, and the stillness gave no token,
And the only word there spoken was the whispered word, “Lenore?”
This I whispered, and an echo murmured back the word, “Lenore!”—
Merely this and nothing more.
Back into the chamber turning, all my soul within me burning,
Soon again I heard a tapping somewhat louder than before.
“Surely,” said I, “surely that is something at my window lattice;
Let me see, then, what thereat is, and this mystery explore—
Let my heart be still a moment and this mystery explore;—
’Tis the wind and nothing more!”
Open here I flung the shutter, when, with many a flirt and flutter,
In there stepped a stately Raven of the saintly days of yore;
Not the least obeisance made he; not a minute stopped or stayed he;
But, with mien of lord or lady, perched above my chamber door—
Perched upon a bust of Pallas just above my chamber door—
Perched, and sat, and nothing more.
Then this ebony bird beguiling my sad fancy into smiling,
By the grave and stern decorum of the countenance it wore,
“Though thy crest be shorn and shaven, thou,” I said, “art sure no craven,
Ghastly grim and ancient Raven wandering from the Nightly shore—
Tell me what thy lordly name is on the Night’s Plutonian shore!”
Quoth the Raven “Nevermore.”
Much I marvelled this ungainly fowl to hear discourse so plainly,
Though its answer little meaning—little relevancy bore;
For we cannot help agreeing that no living human being
Ever yet was blessed with seeing bird above his chamber door—
Bird or beast upon the sculptured bust above his chamber door,
With such name as “Nevermore.”
But the Raven, sitting lonely on the placid bust, spoke only
That one word, as if his soul in that one word he did outpour.
Nothing farther then he uttered—not a feather then he fluttered—
Till I scarcely more than muttered “Other friends have flown before—
On the morrow he will leave me, as my Hopes have flown before.”
Then the bird said “Nevermore.”
Startled at the stillness broken by reply so aptly spoken,
“Doubtless,” said I, “what it utters is its only stock and store
Caught from some unhappy master whom unmerciful Disaster
Followed fast and followed faster till his songs one burden bore—
Till the dirges of his Hope that melancholy burden bore
Of ‘Never—nevermore’.”
But the Raven still beguiling all my fancy into smiling,
Straight I wheeled a cushioned seat in front of bird, and bust and door;
Then, upon the velvet sinking, I betook myself to linking
Fancy unto fancy, thinking what this ominous bird of yore—
What this grim, ungainly, ghastly, gaunt, and ominous bird of yore
Meant in croaking “Nevermore.”
This I sat engaged in guessing, but no syllable expressing
To the fowl whose fiery eyes now burned into my bosom’s core;
This and more I sat divining, with my head at ease reclining
On the cushion’s velvet lining that the lamp-light gloated o’er,
But whose velvet-violet lining with the lamp-light gloating o’er,
She shall press, ah, nevermore!
Then, methought, the air grew denser, perfumed from an unseen censer
Swung by Seraphim whose foot-falls tinkled on the tufted floor.
“Wretch,” I cried, “thy God hath lent thee—by these angels he hath sent thee
Respite—respite and nepenthe from thy memories of Lenore;
Quaff, oh quaff this kind nepenthe and forget this lost Lenore!”
Quoth the Raven “Nevermore.”
“Prophet!” said I, “thing of evil!—prophet still, if bird or devil!—
Whether Tempter sent, or whether tempest tossed thee here ashore,
Desolate yet all undaunted, on this desert land enchanted—
On this home by Horror haunted—tell me truly, I implore—
Is there—is there balm in Gilead?—tell me—tell me, I implore!”
Quoth the Raven “Nevermore.”
“Prophet!” said I, “thing of evil!—prophet still, if bird or devil!
By that Heaven that bends above us—by that God we both adore—
Tell this soul with sorrow laden if, within the distant Aidenn,
It shall clasp a sainted maiden whom the angels name Lenore—
Clasp a rare and radiant maiden whom the angels name Lenore.”
Quoth the Raven “Nevermore.”
“Be that word our sign of parting, bird or fiend!” I shrieked, upstarting—
“Get thee back into the tempest and the Night’s Plutonian shore!
Leave no black plume as a token of that lie thy soul hath spoken!
Leave my loneliness unbroken!—quit the bust above my door!
Take thy beak from out my heart, and take thy form from off my door!”
Quoth the Raven “Nevermore.”
And the Raven, never flitting, still is sitting, still is sitting
On the pallid bust of Pallas just above my chamber door;
And his eyes have all the seeming of a demon’s that is dreaming,
And the lamp-light o’er him streaming throws his shadow on the floor;
And my soul from out that shadow that lies floating on the floor
Shall be lifted—nevermore!
Sunday, August 2, 2020
As I went out one morning (with a nod to W. H. Auden)
As I went out one morning
Walking the primal road
My shoulders were bent over
With an invisible load.
And down by the creek where the salmon
Sing all day in the spring
I heard a man with holes in his clothes
Say, “Love has no ending.”
I wondered at his heresy
He wasn’t supposed to speak
Of things he did not understand
And shouldn’t even seek.
“I love you, Lord, I love you,”
the ragged man proclaimed,
although his face was badly scarred
and his body bent and maimed.
The man was clearly crazy
For as he spoke his rhyme,
The salmon danced in the shallow stream
In fish-determined time.
I didn’t try to love him
But I loved him just the same
For he broke the diver’s quivering bow
And called his God by name.
“Oh tell me, man, oh tell me,”
I cried in my anguished state,
“What is the secret of the world?
Where is the end of hate?”
And all at once his face had changed
To an evil, ugly mask
His body had become the hate
About which I had asked.
“How stamp this mask into the mud,
How keep despair at bay?”
“You can’t,” he told me, grinning,
"But my God can point the way.”
“How dare you speak of God, you wretch,
When God’s abandoned you?
How dare you use the Holy Name?
He doesn’t want you to!
Your life’s just spent surviving
With the sidewalk as your bed
And taking poisons in your veins
And scrambling to be fed.”
The man just stood in leaves and mulch
While the salmon sang and spawned:
“Just see the other side of me
And tell me I am wrong.”
Another face appeared just then
A face all beaming bright
Its eyes were streaming like the sun
With pure mysterious light:
“You blinded fool, you stand before
A drop of mist made rain
An eye that Paradise looks through
That holds both joy and pain.”
“I cannot understand you, for
You play such games with me!
How can you masquerade as God
And tell me how to see?”
“No one knows how Life began,
From Nothing came our birth.
A stir of seething molecules
Sparked all the life on earth.”
“Don’t tell me, wretch, you are the one
Who made this world come true!
Imposter, get out of my road,
I cannot look at you.”
“Just so,” the man said, streaming light,
“For no one knows the why.
But you will be forever changed
By looking through my eye.”
Nonsongs and Neopsalms: a compendium of poems by Margaret Gunning, (Part two)
Part two of an excerpt from a much longer book-length manuscript of poetry (Nonsongs and Neopsalms) that never saw the light of day, though some of the poems were excerpted and published in various literary magazines. These were written over a long stretch of time and represent multiple mental and spiritual transfigurations.
Delivery
This is a strange
Horse I ride, feet
Pointing up, all bloodless and blue
On a long trail of ether.
My brain swims in a vault of chrome
through the removed murmur of voices
and a distant
Clinical clanking.
I will emerge now, slick and
purple as a baby. The surgeon’s eyes
Crinkle over the mask.
Hands cool as paper, hands that have never
Handled a snake, patiently suture
All of my holes. The work is true.
Emergency waiting room
Which is worse: the spilled
smell of
accidents
or the sound
of magazines
slowly
growing older
in this
ticking house of death?
Sorry
My heart unclasped
One day in your office,
Suddenly, all in a shot, the catch
Broke loose, andit
Fell behind a pile of files.
I did not mean to;
It was an accident of gravity.
Earth reached up and pulled it down.
I stood dizzy,
My centre lost, the core
Riven. It felt silly
to lean over like that.
My face grew hot.
There was no way to put it back.
The space had grown over already;
The fall had changed me.
I left that place different,
Looked outside. The light
Hurt my skin. The world
was a new color.
I wiped my eyes, and kept on walking.
A small place
in my chest
Grew still with singing.
loom (a hymn of gratitude)
God sings
As she works. My, my. A merry
tune: Bach; birds.
This weaving
of flesh fibres, new nerves
stretched across dead pain, Awakens
the ache of joy.
How it tingles! Deft hands move,
A shuttle. Darting threads,
A gleam. A sense of fabric.
Substance where there were holes.
The moths driven out.
I will hold now. No secrets will
Spill through. The bag is
Solid; it nests
All the marbles.
Somedays
Somedays, the harshness of nostrils
Bus-lurching crowds, rudespeak
of news-seekers, is too much for me,
I need to nestle, to throstle,
wrestle with the renewal
(of your mint-melting
inner adagio)
The bus vomits; I catch hold of things
again. Taking charge of the crowd,
grabbing thumbs
manipulating the traffic
pulling the world with a pair of
pliers
It’s no good any more: I need your dependable
light somnolence: the old silk robe
of your being
(I need to
wear you
like
hair)
Crown (For Joshua)
It’s purple out today; no mistaking
it. Purple sings
The imperial air. Where
roses were lost, that dimension
They were sucked into/I traverse
(as through a secret panel
or revolving door)
to the Other Side, where essence of roses
Smells.
Purple wings shot through
with veins – with skeins of slaughter
We know the price: the smell of
(blood and roses)
Purple sings the imperial air. Where
roses are hidden/purple roses
that spill
You-riff (a favorite)
If mint ice cream could be made flesh,
(moreover
Gershwin’s
(innocent
piano keys (not the (inanimate: but the
(hot
very (act of playing) teeth, a fine Mary-
morning
(could be a bald spot:a hunch of shoulders)
(all
then I guess this Everywhere where we (call
the universe/this minimouse, into the Here
would be exhaling you/expressing you
daily,
in daily bliss, dally, bless blush
doily
in gaily, / earthshivering
Maymess triumphant, in Gerard Manley Hopkins’
hosiery/then, I guess your
Bashful tigersmile’s a paean to
“Great Chocolate!” eyes (a-bleeding
(monument to
(hooting hyaena’s
laugh’s a plainsong to)
Lean into it
Haven’t they played this song before?
It’s pain, and it has been on my radio
For weeks now. Let’s settle down
(my yoyo: the tiny precious blue one,
has been asleep for days; some dream
told me it had died,
(spring died,
That it (would not be back again.)
“But an astral yoyo” (this is
an official statement) broke loose
between our tromboning eyebeams,
our Sprung-together selves. You are
an Arctic expedition; I a mere
can of Spam, better than eating the dogs
but less tasty than your bunkmate
Everything stopped breathing
There was a gown
Made of apricots,
Woven from
A dream of bees, a smile
so drunken it was breathed by
Mother Teresa; I was saturated.
Then you came along like an
Old saddle, your walk as
wobbly as
Copland’s cowboy.
Was I expected to just
(go on)
breathing again?
Mary Alice
I sing of Maryalice,
nun as sweet as she
(tied up in the AA meeting/back to back
with Ray the pervert, the man
with the gun in his pocket
Fisheye Red, Lazy Sprockett, and the kindly forever prostitute)
A dizzy harrumph, and Mary Alice spoke
of life/in an abstinent/dry convent
Not even the sacrificial
Wine/A sober nun! I longed
to anoint
her
/ screwed brow
with the oil of self-congratulation the raw
Bursting sanctity of very existence.
Her voice was frail as a Gramophone,
her hug like rails,
her print dress (out of habit?) disdainfully
Particolored. I wanted an umbrella
to shield her bent crown
from the raining destruction of reality
Buzzed
Your hive was a hum of
Cortical surprise; a splendor
(golden fuzz)
Of psalms: a salty of Bee
being. Such passion
in the apiary! Such dizzy repro- (se-?)
Duction! Bee
attitudes frighten me. I will pick
the salacious hairs, the
haloed laughter of swarms
From my bee-blurred eyes.
Three-part invention
(a) indigo eyes
I am the salt
you are the sweet
hair/
My heartsprung
(horse) of the air,
au clair
ah! care,
clover
to the/stables,
We.
Drenched with the scent
of hens of hay
dear
of tree: your/odor
(of salt
(of sap
(of sea
b) cunningerotic
Lip, let me laugh
You. Set the salt
Sally, sashay down
The hay of my mind.
Seashorn,
feverworn
hairborne: Your
face a chiming, a
Brining. The
(stainglassed
seahorse
of your
(voicy
(ice
c) Fifth chakra (for ray lynch)
a blues tunnel
blamed open
pitched down
to the base of the soul
Mermaids spinning
in your throat, Dear
heart: shining vessel,
opened for a song,
shut open,
Wept for a penny
disabled
the
by/(dreaming
(door
Three more haiku
I. Back road
The way unspools, retreating
from a back window:
Unreeling
vision.
II. Spiral
Higher I mount, and higher.
I look down. The screw
Turns deeper.
I climb.
III. Final exam
Horses explode from the gate.
Pens surging forward –
Furious
focus.
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